hmm i wonder

I wonder if D is busy or annoyed with me. At this point i dont give a damn. I am making an effort and he should just appreciate it. I make more an effor than him but of course I always do that for the peole i care about a lot and they dont really make the same effort. Ya know what i mean? I wonder how richard is? Everyone tells me not to talk to him but he was one of my best friends and ijust cant ignore him ya know? Well these two guys take up a lot of my thoughts and big peices of my heart. Amanda chose Dillan to be with. Ted is an asshold and decided he couldnt be with Amanda because his parents said he could not date. I felt bad but its ok she will find someone that can and that will treat her even better. Yes it is possible. HAyley is having guy trouble but i know this will work out becasue she is amazing. Brandy got kicked otu because she was found with alcool, sex itmes, weed, and other things. Her mother was so upset and Brandy just cussed her out. I felt bad for their mom. Amber and Lissa and I watched the 10th kingdom which is amazing. Well i guess thats it for now. Oh there are three cop cars outside... so i have to go to see wut is the heck is goin on.ttyl luv ya`s xoxoxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxo

It doesnt hurt though he tried

Well my best friend, Richard, chose my best friend Amber over me. I said ok. When they broke up he told me he liked me and that he was only with her becasue he thought she was exactly liek me. I said ok and tried to bear it. We liked each other. OVer the past two monthes all we do is fight. HE asked if we could try thids again and try to make it work. Well here was his idea of making it work...

Friday~We finally worked out our problems and thought about trying to make it work.
Saturday~ He had unprotected sex with some chick at a party that i dint go to.
Sunday~ Confessed and then told me he is in love with me.
Monday~ Asked if there was any possibility of us becoming an actual "us"

Maybe I am crazy but that is not a lot of effort to e trying to make something work. I think its bull. I am not going to yell at him though I think he wants me to. I guess when people question things then it makes it harder and on top of that he is going to punish himself more than I ever could.
Ok so I might have a new crush. This kid named Nate is just the sweetest guy ever. I am starting to adore him.We ran through the sprinklers lol. Next weekend there will be a party and we will see if I want to go or not. Well I guess thats all the drama. ttyl love ya's xoxoxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxo

the end of school

School is coming to an end and it make me just so sad to even think of that. I mean hoestly I will never see about 710 people again. All the seniors will graduate and then when I become a senior next year how sad it will be. I mean all my friends and I will split up and it will just be horrible. I guess in a way its like a new adventure, but to me it just seems... like a loss. How depressingthat we will all go our seperate ways and totally forget about one another and only think of each pther when we look at a year book. I dont know i just think that is so sad. People think I am just being over dramatic about it. I am sure it wont be as hard as I think it will be... no i am not sure that is such a lie. I have hope though. It will be great. No matter what I will try to keep the friendships i want ya know. I mean care enough and I know that if I make an effort it will all work out. I am sure of it. I can do all I can and the ppl that really do want to talk to me will. People who care or want to be friends really will make an effort! I just need to remember that. There are certain ppl that I am excitied about not talking to anmore and then there are other ppl that I dont ever want to loose and like 1/8 of them i wont lol. well ttyl. love ya's xoxoxoxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxo

lame

I cant get my dang music videos to work.Omg yesterday was the first time damiean has aver gotten mad at me. I wonder how this will work out!