wut an adventure

Wow so lately I have been so mad at my friends. SO many of them have been talking shit behind my back and dont think I know. I am also sick of hearing how to live my life. I know it may not be the way people want but i am trying so hard and no one seems to recognize that. People make me feel worthless and not important. I know I am though. It hurts when no body can see how hard I try. Unfortunately I moved out of my parents house on the 8th. My 18th bday of course! Well everything has gone wrong. My friend, Amber that tried to help screwed me over cuz i guess her mom never said I could live there which means that while I was so vulnerable someone screwed me over. I dont know who and honestly I dont want to know. i am scared to find out who lied. Then I moved out of there. She kept telling me to get my stuff. Well I tried to move in with Carlos. he stole 150 from me and didnt tell the land lady that I was living there so I got kicked out with nothing. I was so pissed! I have been stayin at mikes or anywhere I can find. being homeless wasnt fun. I was always hungry and i never had any money. Now I quit my job cuz I couldnt take it anymore and am working on this really bad depression I have. I live with melissa and her parents actually wanted me there. It meant the world to me and they make me feel like I am part of the family. Well that could be cuz they are like my second family in general. haha. I thought it was funny. My phone died and I cant get a hold of the charger. That sux. I have a job interview on Wednesday and then I have to go see two of the people today for a job. Right now I am just tired and everything has been so hectic. Yesterday was funny though. I went into a game place where there are lots of computers and different game systems to play and some guy came over to me while i was asking a worker there a question and he kept answering and trying to show off cuz he was like oh yeah i know all the staff cuz I am a regualr here. I was like well thats nice. I mean honestly big freakin deal! I dont give a shit I have a wondrful man that I said I love....idk... people irritate me and i think its understandable. its been hard to trust and there was one other event but i cant write that down jus in case someone i know reads it and gets to worried. I hope things get better. This has been quite an adventure. <3<3<3